well hello there.
this is my first post on wordpress & so far i’m kinda liking the site. a bit confusing buuuttt i think i’ll adjust appropriately. so maybe this will make me famous, maybe it’ll just be another useless blogger site. ionno, don’t really care. but i hope to have SOME kind of effect on SOMEONE. anywhooo here’s my first “personal” blog post (personal meaning of course something coming from my own personal experience/feelings)
here goes nothin:
okay so lately i been doin a LOT of observing and thinking & i just gotta get some thoughts out of my head. my senior year is FINALLY HERE, it feel so good to be able to say that. though it’s the beginning of the summer i’m anxious for what it holds on because i know that this is my last step of personal development before i head off on my own (to college that is.) i started to lose sight of what i wanted to do in life. it felt odd and i began to feel lost. most people know that i’m a writer. i’m good at writing, yes, but i started to wonder “does writing make me happy? do i get a different kind of feeling when i write?” and the answer to those questions amongst many others was i don’t know. i guess you could say i’m finding myself, which is a good thing because i’ve spent way too much time searching instead of letting my true self find me. on another note, i think my maturity is finally coming into fruition. like i can see myself changing for the better & making wiser decisions every day. though others around me (and maybe you too) might be stuck in a developmental phase (be it them not knowing themselves or being accepting of who they really are & end up doing something negative like lying or something to hurt someone) i’m not letting them affect me & neither should you. i’m just gonna try to help them mature as people themselves because it’s immature in itself to let someone fall when you could easily pick them up and help them along their way. another thing i’m realizing is i’m so done the bullshit. like forreal if you’re not genuine and completely honest w/me get out of my face because i definitely don’t have time for it. it’s alotta people that i considered my friends that i’m comin to realize don’t mean much to me, and i’m also coming to see that there are people i’ve been neglecting that have prolly been some of the best friends i’ve ever had. i’ve tried the longest to have a strong relationship with the people that didn’t genuinely care as much as i did and i was just wasting my time. now i’m focused & mentally strong enough to do what i gotta do to succeed emotionally, relationship wise, & in many other ways. on the other hand, there have been people that have been there this whole time who actually do care, they just have a kinda off brand way of showing it. lol. buuuut yeah idk i just had to get this stuff off my mind. it kinda felt good writing again. maybe this is my calling… ionno but i’m still searching.
oh & p.s.
-i’ma be myself regardless of what you or anybody else may think so if you aint rockin with that i’m doin then i guess you can get to steppin. lls.
p.p.s.
-i have no kinda time for BITCHES or BITCHASSNESS so if you gonna be childish & do immature shit then you really need to get the fuck.
